why? because it was the song i was listening to when i decided to write this post. but the thing is i’m not quite sure what this post will be about…
lately my life has gone for bleh bad to bad bad.
it just so happens that fafsa has come through and yet i still need to pay 5000 dollars for college.
thinking about it its not that much but for the situation my family is in at this moment in time it is a lot of money.
the more i think about going to vet school the more i start to question how will i pay for it?
if my family continues to be where we are right now
and the economy continues to fall
then there is no way i would be able to afford grad school.
just the thought of money makes me want to scream.
there is the saying just trust the LORD
he does everything he does for a reason
but for me at this specific moment in time its really hard to trust in the LORD
the biggest problem with the LORD is the fact that faith is what you need.
and sometimes i think that i don’t have the faith needed to continue to believe.
the faith to trust that he is there looking after me.
the faith that he loves me.
it really doesn’t matter what other people tell me about the matter
because as long as i don’t confront what i feel head on there really is no point
but i just don’t want to face anything.
lets just leave it like that.
