everyday i sit wondering if what i should do with my life.
i think time would be better spent if i did something
instead of just thinking.
that may be my biggest problem
i try to think my way though a situation
instead of working my way through a situation
even now as i am sitting at torg bridge
im thinking to myself how will i study for my biology test?
instead of just throwing myself in.
is this the way i view life?
i think so.
i like to know what im doing
where im going which is ironic because
right now i have nooo idea where im going
what im going to do
i mean i have to declare my major as psychology
…
yeah… exactly…
what am i suppose to do with psychology?
thats why im going to minor in sociology.
even better right?
and as my sister says minors dont really mean anything…
but i am going to be pre-vet…
whatever that means…
pre-vet… so much work ahead of me…
ochem (the horrors)
chem (i dont know how im going to manage)
bchem (-_________-;;;;)
im scared for my next 3 years of college.
they seem like they’re going to be hard.
i pray to God that this is what he wants me to do
but i cant hear him speaking to me…
maybe i need to pray harder or listen more carefully.
i wish i didnt have to try have to plan
have to worry
have to just have everything piled on top of me
the expectations of my parents
its just hard.
but the worst part is that i know
im not the only one going though these struggles.
and on top of that i dont have to the hardest struggles ontop of me
and that is what makes me feel so worthless
even though there are people who have faced worse
and came through it all
and those who are facing worse and coming through
i cant even seem to set my feet on the ground
i want to just float
just float far far away…
